Thursday, November 21, 2013

3 Things for 11/21/13

Listening to Tori Amos has flooded me with so many memories.  So, I am thankful for meeting Kevin. Thankful for that walk in the rain. Thankful for the feelings I had. 

Sunday, November 17, 2013

3 Things for 11/17/2013

Cookies and cream ice cream. Cuddles with my fur babies. Adam Levine's damn.

Today Derek asked me how to pronounce que (Kay).  I tell him and about a minute later he days, "Oh! Like quesadilla!" I love his delayed reactions.

Saturday, November 16, 2013

3 Things for 11/16/13

How understanding and supportive Derek can be.

Having a washing machine in my home.

That it is finally cooling down here. I love Fall and Winter!

Friday, November 15, 2013

Of course...

I have the best intentions of posting everyday, but I get distracted.  LOL

Today I am thankful for the people I've adopted as family. Who knew you could have so many dads, uncles, brothers from another mother, and a sister-wife.

The ability to recognize that a feeling I had was valid and to process it without becoming overwhelmed or upset.

That I am learning the art of forgiveness. 

My sister-in-law's MS results came back and the word is they caught it super early.  So the sky is the limit on quality of life and treatments. At least that's the understanding I got from Detek. Thank you for the thoughts and well wishes.  It helps me be strong for Derek.

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Three Things

My supervisor has challenged us to come up with three things we are grateful for everyday.  We've been doing it for about two months. I think to expand it into my home life, I will be posting them here.  That way I wail start and finish the day on a good note.  

The thought process behind it is if you think positively, you will live that way. And honestly, I love it.  Some days it is a little hard to think of something, but you realize after awhile, there are a million things to be happy about.

So dear reader pals, I challenge you to think (and share if you want) what you are happy about. It can be anything!

I am also reading a book called Who Moved My Cheese? It's about changing your perspective and dealing with change. It's an easy read and I picked it up real cheap. But it really is funny how a simple story can make you evaluate how you live.  I recommend it.

I do ask that y'all send some good thought to my sister in law. She was diagnosed with MS and the family is in limbo waiting for more results. 

Other than that, I am doing pretty well and wanted to touch base. 

Monday, September 30, 2013

HNE9 An Update is Long Over Due

I am so flaky.  I don't even remember anything I wanted to write.  I will do my best to remember everything.

So lets start with some good and end with some good.  A little meh in between.

In early September I went to Vegas for the Pride48 extravaganza.  Being a suit/skirt, it was amazing to see it all come to be. I had a fantastic time.  I didn't get to spend as much time with everyone that I wanted to; however, with a little under 100 people there, it wasn't really possible. It was really a successful event.  We are already putting things in motion for next year and I am already excited.  

Pride48 is a big chunk of my heart.  It is a way I can be myself, be with people I love, and help gather them all together for a big love fest.  Plus I get to see hot nekkid men and who can complain about that?  Every year I hope it gets bigger and better.  I am proud to be apart of it and honored that they have me.  

Big Fatty, Me, Adam, Daniel, and Joey (Suits minus Donna, our newest skirt!)

Most of the attendees of Pride48!

So the crap that happened at work.  It still bothers me. So much so, I have had a few breakdowns at work. It is getting easier to handle, but I am so mad.  So fucking mad.  I really considered the kid my family. I would have done anything for him and pretty much did.  I guess my heart still hurts.  I know I need to forgive. At some point I will. Right now, I will just think what a douche he is in my mind.

Derek got a promotion at work and is currently in the transition phase of his training.  It also means a raise and working days.  So we get to spend more time together and save up for something (home, kid, moving, travel, ect). He is so very smart and I am very proud of him.

Our mum and dad (in-laws) are in town and I have been spending a ton of time with them.  We have done a ton of things!  It has really taught me to appreciate what is here in Tucson and Arizona as a whole. We did some antiquing, went to The Arizona- Sonora Desert Museum, did some shopping, went to Tombstone, went to the Pima Air and Space Museum, and gained about 10 pounds with all the food.  My in-laws are lovely people. I have a great relationship with them both and I am happy I was able to show them a great time.

 This bird let me all up in his grill
 Hummingbird that isnt flying?!
This is just all sorts of wrong.

 Derek in Tombstone
 We went to Boot hill Graveyard and there were a ton of bizarre grave markers.  Also, some lacist ones.
I wish I got a picture of the building, it was pretty neat.

 I was a fan of the plane art, these are my favorites.

Sunday, September 1, 2013

HNE8 Whimper

So many things beating my brain and heart into a pulp.  I was letting so many things get to me.  I was still really angry about the incident at work. He's a schmuck.  I need to let it go for my own sake.  But good things did come out of this.  I have gotten to know a very sweet girl I work with who relates to my anxiety.  I also got to talk with another girl who shared some interesting information with me that helped me put things in perspective.

It took several breakdowns to get to a point where I felt better.  Just in time to get a cold! So I have been Emergen-Cing it up, I used a neti pot y'all!  It was amazing!  Breath right strips and NyQuil.  I feel a lot better, but still have some congestion.  I am hoping I knock it out by Wednesday.  It's Vegas time!  Pride48 time!

I'm not going to lie, I am freaking out inside.  It's going to be like 100 people. Most I have already met, but a lot of newbies.  Freaking out!  I just need some hugs of reassurance and a stiff drink. And I did get the anti-anxiety meds refilled.  

I am doing my damn best to remain positive because I have so much to look forward to. I just need to remember to breath, remember that one douchebag's opinion is not everyone's, and be thankful for those who love me.